emo. but not really. March 29, 2006
Posted by Mayee in : Daily Babble , trackbacklistening to: passenger seat - stephen speaks
Math finals are finally over. yeh. Only one more philo11 exam to worry about then I’m gonna be able to relax. Not that I’m not relaxing right now.. :P
Moving on.. My PC “crashed” again the yesterday. It just suddenly conked out on me. I had to reformat and reinstall everything. I opened Explorer to view my files. DING! Suddenly it occured to me that everything was wiped out. format eh, duh. For a moment there I thought I would cry. Seriously. My files were gone. Memories from high school, heck, even grade school!
I keep this journal in notepad files (with the .LOG thing) where I just let everything out. I mean everything. Whenever I read those notepad files I don’t even recognize myself. I put in those journals more than I have ever shared to an actual person in my life. I guess it’s coz I’m such an introvert. Well anyway, when it occured to me that I might probably never see those files again, I was overcome with so much grief. I felt like a close friend had died, carrying all my secrets with him/her into his/her grave. Then, just like a miracle (like somebody brought back the dead), I wandered upon an old folder in my D:\ drive. It was a backup of my files (I probably backed up when I was cleaning up my files before). Most of my recent files weren’t there.. but I found my diaries. I don’t know if it was happiness or great relief… either way, the sadness was gone.
Anyway, all that made me realize something. You can’t really rely on a computer to keep your secrets forever. Everything material is just temporary, never lasting. Unlike when you share something with people, friends. Your experiences, emotions are sure to be with them forever.
Oo na, this entry may be very senti right now. But heck, that’s what I’m feeling at the moment. Unless you can come over here and punch all the emo-ness out of me, I’m stuck this way for the rest of the night. Text niyo na lang ako, try and make me laugh, haha. Hai. ‘tsall for now, folks. G’night. :P
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bkt kta ttxt, di ka naman nagrereply eh.. ehehe joke joke mayeeee.. =P
siguro ok na rin na mawawala yung files sa computer para makalimutan mo na lang lahat. hehe. :P
**kei :)
yeah.. fresh start. hehe :) pero relief pa rin na nakita ko ulit sila.. :D hehe. :)