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My day and some stuff September 26, 2006

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Got up at around 9 this morning. CS21 started at 9:30 so I had around, well, 30 minutes to do my morning rush ritual. 15minutes to take a bath, 10 minutes to decide what to wear and wear it, 5 minutes for last-minute bag-stuffing and spritzing on some scents. Got to Engg at exactly 9:30. Maam Florence wasn’t in the room when I entered, although some did comment on my sporting the dripping-wet-hair look. Maam Florence came and lectured.. turns out (as I was unaware) that that was our last lecture for the whole semester. What was left were the exams and, of course, my unfinished mp. So we ended at around 10 minutes past 10. That was the shortest CS lecture I have ever experienced.. not that I understood the most of it.

After CS we went to the tambayan. Seeing as there was at least 2 more hours before our next class, I went back to the dorm to fetch my laptop. Tried to do some MP work at the tambayan.. but, of course, as it turns out, it really is impossible to focus on acads there, with all the people, and the cards, and the games.

Went to math class. More vectors and planes and all that stuff.. I will try to study all of it before the exam. As of now, I have no clue whatsoever to what’s with those lines and vectors. It was raining really hard all through math. So hard that I thought the roof was going to collapse on us and leave us all in a watery grave. Through the window I could see nothing but white. I wanted so much to lie down and nap at that time.. Haven’t really had a decent nap in ages.. the kind of nap you take when you have absolutely nothing to do and just want to rest and relax. But I am not complaining about lack of naps when even a good-night’s sleep is an issue. So anyway, after math class the rain had let up. We went to Physics class next. Same old boring stuff. Couldn’t find the will to take the lecture seriously seeing as I really had no clue what Sir Francis was talking about. I would just do good on our Recit Quiz on Friday.. and the pre-exams on monday and Tuesday, and the 3rd exam on Wednesday, and the Finals the next week. Ack! So many exams. Not to mention the CS21 3rd exam, Math 54 5th long exam, Math and CS Finals. Woah. Exam overload. I wish this sem would end. Pleeeeese let it end soon. Please?

Anyway, after Physics we had PE (Pilates).. and as it also turns out, it was already our last meeting for the sem. We won’t be having our exercises anymore. We will be having this last activity thing on Friday, though.. I’m not sure if I’ll be going. Most likely I wont go. It’s wall climbing at Power Up, Tandang Sora. Plus pakain also for us to bond with our classmates I suppose. I don’t really need that. Bahala sila. I shall spend the time here in the dorm, studying for my exam on Saturday, which by the way starts at 4 and goes on probably till 7pm, leaving me about 30 minutes or so to get to Joelle’s debut. Shets. That’s life.

I REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT THE SEM TO END. SEMBREAK PLEASE?

But of course before the Semester is over, I have to decide whether I shall go on staying here in this dorm. Perhaps the deciding factor is whether my current roommates will be moving to Yakal or not. If they do, I shall say goodbye to Molave. I have no plans of getting to know new roommates and being the new girl all over again. Besides, I have yet to find people here that I would get along better with than the roommates I already have. They are the best. =) (Plus, they haven’t kicked me out after all the ngaragness I have exhibited in this last sem.. all my crazy antics and loud everything.. haha) If I don’t stay in Molave though, I don’t think I’d have any other choice but to commute everyday again. And that is not a fun thought after having experienced the convenience of living on campus 24/7 and having to just cross the street to get to my first class. Oh how I shall miss that if I do leave. Ack. So many dilemmas.

I miss going out on weekends. I’ve had so much to do these past few weeks that I didn’t even go home last week (or was it the other week). I’m SORRY, SORRY, SORRY to all the people I promised to go out with and watch a movie or something.. I just can’t seem to find the time on weekends. They have become such short-lived phenomenons, like the flicker of a candle light. I hate it, really. SORRY again, and I really really promise I shall make it up next time. (If there IS a next time)

This is getting long, so I better cut it here. Good night. I shall post again soon, dear readers (if I have any.. haha) Sorry for the long post. Till next time. =)

LSS September 24, 2006

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Suffering from severe LSS to the song: I’m Yours by Jason Mraz
I lavet lavet lavet! haha. Yesterday was Molave’s Open House. I woke up unusually early for a Saturday morning so that Ate Mhai and I could go and buy some food to serve our, well, visitors. We had tuna salad thing, grahams and cheese, fruit salad, and err i forgot. Then at around noon time my parents came by, had a few bites then we left. Sad I didn’t get to experience the whole open house thing.

But on a brighter note:

Woohoo! Yay! Yipee! Hurrah! Wanna know why? (more…)

Nonexistent Curfews September 22, 2006

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Eeks. It’s Molave’s Openhouse tomorrow. Goodness gracious great balls of fire. It’s so messy here and I am not in a cleaning mood. I’m still in MP mode. My MP has come to be the greatest obstacle in my life for the past few weeks. Crap.

TGIF. Well, not really. I got up early this morning. I think I surprised many people by doing so.. my roommates who are not at all used to me waking up 45 mins before the start of my class, and my classmates who are not the slightest bit used to seeing me outside our classroom before our prof arrives. I guess it’s coz I slept before 2:00 am this morning, which is a huge improvement from my usual sleep habits. So as the class dragged on ’til around 11am, I was spacing out. Yes, I was staring at the slides, just staring. My mind could not process even the simplest bit of information presented to us (not that any of it was the slightest bit simple).

After CS21 class I went back to the dorm. I ate Yakisoba for lunch. I’m not a fan of Herb’s Shanghai Rolls, you see, and that was what they served at the mess hall. I’d say my MP made 0.00000001% progress during lunch time. At around quarter to 1 I headed for the Math Bldg, had the usual math class where I just copied notes from the blackboard like a photocopying machine, nothing really processing. Then I didn’t feel like going to Physics class.. went to Eng’g, tumambay, attended Sheri’s interview, then waited for Joelle to arrive since she had my eng11 readings. We had dinner at McDo katipunan with Erdie, Patrick, JC, Kath, Boji, et. al. (Madami kami, as it turns out there were more CURSOR people there when we arrived) We stayed till around 11pm. Of course, being the delinquent person I am, I went past curfew again. But then lo and behold! When I got here at around 11:30, the doors were not yet shut! And yet again I escape the wrath of ate guard. haha. :P

So yeah, Openhouse tomorrow. Punta kayo. But then again that means I have to wake up early tomorrow and fix the room up, and buy food from Philcoa so that we’d have something to offer the people who would visit our room. :P

So I better get back to my MP. right. See ya.
(actual post time: 1:07AM 23 Sept 2006, I just put 11:59 para kunwari kahapon ko ‘to sinulat. haha)

Wrong September 19, 2006

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My MP:

Input 1: 65535
Operation: -
Input 2: 14

Result: -4294901775

Wow. Hanep.

It Just Comes Around September 17, 2006

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I have been awfully down these last couple of days. Seeing as I have not passed my MP, I am so behind on Eng11 reading, and I’m not really faring well in any of my other classes, PLUS, my life just doesn’t seem to have the same “oomph” to it.

There are some times when I space out (more often, of course, when I am alone in my dorm room, or here at home) that I just think about things.. all sorts of things.. people, events in my life, the good, the bad.. everything. And right now I’m adjusting to the fact which I realized a few days ago, that I have a problem with committing. No, this is not romantic-relationship drama, this is life drama. See, I find myself promising people things that, in the end, I find I am unable to deliver… my time, my effort, or even tangible things. I always back-out at the last minute. I DO try to change that as much as I can. I can’t find the drive to keep it up though. Palagi na lang akong tinatamad, parang wala nang reason para mabuhay at mag-effort. I know I have to figure out a way to get rid of this horrid habit of mine, I just don’t know when I’ll get enough courage to take a deep breath and say “hey, today’s the day! I’ll change today!” It just doesn’t seem possible. Or is it just me.. :P

Everything with me seems fleeting. Even emotions are fleeting. I wouldn’t really call it having mood swings (though I wouldn’t really know what to call it otherwise). I’m happy at one time, and then I just suddenly remember something that makes me space out and snap back to a really gray feeling. I hate it. People around would just wonder what happened, why I’m suddenly just blank. I honestly can’t comprehend the weirdness of my personality. Even with people, my attitude toward them is temporary. One moment I’m liking being with this person, then suddenly I find reasons to just despise them, if not just slightly disliking being with them. I’d sometimes want to scream at myself for being so random and unpredictable. I want order in my life, some certain routine, pattern, something! Spontaneity is not something I am big on. I hate it. I hate the fact that I cannot tell what I will be feeling in the next few minutes, about something.. about someone.. aargh.

I guess that’s why sometimes I just shut up completely. I wouldn’t know what to say. Communication is not really my strength. Yeah, I do babble on about lots of things to my friends, my roommates, to my family, but for me it’s just not “communicating”. Sometimes my words seem so empty, so meaningless.. they’re just storytelling.. the act of relating events. And nothing in it really tells them who I AM. Plus I don’t see the sense of talking about something I know the other party won’t be interested in. And if for some reason I am with someone I have absolutely nothing in common with, then what’s the sense of starting conversation anyway? That’s mostly why I enjoy the company of someone I can just be with. No talking needed. Even when there’s silence, it’s not awkward. I miss that kind of thing with some of my friends from my earlier years.. I mean, when we were kids, playing some toy with someone else did not require speech. Maybe that’s why kids stay friends longer than older people can keep commitments. But for me, I want that kiddie thing again.

And speaking of kids, I want to be one again. Problem free, stress free, free to just play all day not worrying about anything, about anyone. But that’s just wishful thinking. And I will now snap back to reality.. The reality that life sucks.

Mahal Kong Sisig. September 13, 2006

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Lagot na.

My MP deadline was 5:00 am. My MP is now 19 hours late. I don’t give a fudge. See there’s this 10 day thing where I can still get at least half of the maximum grade + bonuses. So there’s still a visible chance that I will pass CS21.

Anyway.. The Y4it Congress started today. Call time for us volunteers was 6:00 am. But of course since I stayed up past 4 am this morning trying to finish my MP, and assuming wrongly that I could just “nap” for an hour, I overslept. When I woke up I immediately checked on UVLE to see how many had submitted the MP. 22 uploads, it said. Damn. There are 23 of us in our class. LOL. I Don’t care. Since I was already late for the registration thing at the UP Theater, I just tried tinkering with my code for a while. Then I just waited for Joelle to get back from her apostolate thing. We went to the Bahay ng Alumni at around 1pm. Turns out the free lunch was already gone, so we went to the Shopping Center and had lunch.

I MISSED PAPERCUP’S SISIG.

So I shall narrate how I fell in love with Papercup’s Sisig last year.

Setting: First year of college, First Sem, a Tuesday.

My schedule on Tuesdays/Fridays:
8:30-10:00 Nat Sci 1
LOOOONG BREAK
1:00-2:15 Math 17
2:30-4:00 Philo 1

See that long break up there? Well. During that time, I was uwian.. I did not dorm, nor board anywhere. AND! I was org-less. So.. during those liesure hours of mine, I was left with nothing to do. Nothing. And I had nobody to bug because all my friends / acquaintances had classes during my break. Lucky me. So I usually ended up wandering around campus, really having nowhere to go, or going in and out of Palma Hall, sitting down somewhere, watching people pass me by. Pathetic, i know.

It was then that I had decided that I would try to find a decent restaurant or something within / near campus. And after a not-so-long time of exploring, I found the perfect place to eat a plate of sizzling sisig.. Papercup. For those who don’t know Papercup, it was this pathetic little stall in the UP Shopping Center which was not that busy on a regular day.. and even less busy when not meal time. But I liked not-busy places.. so I went in. Ordered a plate of sizzling sisig (yes! me! alone! pathetic!) and stayed, wiled the time away, reading readings of no immediate importance.

And that is how I learned to love Papercup’s sisig.

But then during summer break, they closed, and some new restaurant opened in its place, Ersao. I thought I had lost my sisig forever ’til today when Joelle saw the bond paper they had stuck on their glass window, “Sizzling Sisig”, it had said, as an addition to their computerized menu. Oh the simple joys we enjoy. haha.

So anyway, back to my day. After we had eaten our sisig, we went back to the Bahay ng Alumni and did whatever we were told to do there as volunteers. At around 5:30 we proceeded to the UP Theater for last-minute reminders and stuff. Then they gave us our FREE Y4it shirts! Yay!

Hai. I have an exam in Math 54 tomorrow.. Quadric Surfaces and Conic Sections and all that. Ick. I have to study now. (Right, after that looong entry) Goodnight for now. =)