Confusication December 27, 2006
Posted by Mayee in : Daily Babble , trackbackSo what do I do with my life now? I have nothing much to brag about in my life right now.. and quite frankly I don’t know where I’m headed. Ask me where I picture myself in 5 - 10 years. I wouldn’t have a freaking idea. And really, I don’t think about it much. When I do start to think about it, I throw the idea away, push it back to the recesses of my mind (if i have one).
Right now I am in a good (am I understating?) university, I’m taking up a course which will launch me into a field where talent is highly in-demand, I am a member of an excellent organization from which I have juiced the fun-filled days of my college life, and I have a (relatively) good-enough social life.
But it’s just not what I want.
Although what I DO want I have yet to sequentially list / sort (and print?), I know it’s not exactly this, and that I’m just lacking something that would lead me there.
I know (or at least I have been mislead to believe) that what I have right now is enough to be so thankful for, and don’t get me wrong, I am VERY thankful for all of it. But can you blame someone for wanting something ELSE? not necessarily MORE? Maybe I don’t want to be in a good university, maybe I don’t want to be seen as just this know-it-all little braggart, maybe I’m sick of all this.. this.. conflict, maybe I want to be somewhere where I can just be myself and feel good about it.
I dunno, just a thought. I’m still at a state of confusion right now. I don’t know this place’s zip code so if you wanna reach me, well, you can’t.
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