Happy Stress February 10, 2007
Posted by Mayee in : Daily Babble , trackbackIndeed I have come to a new phase in my life, which is preoccupying myself with ‘must-do’s. I never really understood why people would go ahead and busy themself with unnecessary work burdens, but I think I’m starting to see why.. not that I’m generalizing everybody. But personally I have my own reasons.
Stress is everybody’s worst nightmare, and I honestly don’t know how it got into my system to try it as some kind of therapy. But I guess in some ways stress over a certain something gets your ENTIRE mind off stress from another thing, something worse perhaps. I don’t claim to be an expert on stress and stress management, I just speak from experience.
Making this about me again, I used to loathe, and I mean loathe, having nothing to do. I felt useless, devoid of meaning, without purpose, and whatever else there is in the thesaurus about uselessness. And then comes a time when the tables turn, and I am now lacking time to do NOTHING. When that happens, I sometimes space out, pretending I have nothing to do, and go on waiting for time to pass.. and then I realize I’ve been as useless as ever. What I’m trying to say is that I don’t know what I want. Sometimes I want this, sometimes I want that. Define fickle-minded?
And from stress I talk about fickle-mindedness. Why? Because I can’t get a certain something out of my web of thoughts. It’s bothering me, causing me much lack of sleep, and debilitating my work time. I can’t really narrate the thread of events that have lead me to this kind of stress (not the happy stress I was talking about).. all I can say is that after so much (of that something) I have still yet to find a clear take on where I stand.
To end, lemme just say, I have never found this saying truer in my entire life:
One wrong can shatter a thousand rights.
Good night. I can never seem to write a good-enough entry. Ack.
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