So far I’m already finding it hard to get a minute for myself. The annual Engineering Week is fast approaching, and just like every other organization in the College of Engineering, UP CURSOR’s working its butt off to get into shape and prepare for the deadly 7-day war amongst “friendly” orgs.

After Eng’g Week, there’s CS Week in February 2009. That again would be another mad festival of events that we have to get into motion (well, the CURSOR part of it at least). Although February also means UP FAIR! I love Fair season. It gets surreal around campus that it’s almost magical (I really am not exaggerating).

I fear my sanity might not hold throughout this very very long semester. But then again, I fear that all the time, and yet I’ve only ever had one meltdown / burnout in the history of my College life.

So there, I’m already looking forward to next year’s events that it’s like I’ve skipped over Christmas and New Year. And there’s one thing I can say about both holidays.. I DON’T WANT 2008 TO BE OVER YET! STOP TIME! PLEASE!

Sembreak ko na rin sa wakas. Pagbigyan niyo po ang pagtagalog ko sa entry na ito.. wala lang ako sa mood magpaka-proper na English. Wooh!

Kahit one week na lang halos ang natitira sa bakasyon, okay lang.. bakasyon pa rin. Gusto ko na matulog ng matulog.. magpaka-bum. Pero mas gusto kong lumabas ng lumabas, kung may pera lang ako. Gusto kong gumala, gumimik, tumambay, lumabas, humiga lang.. lahat ng hindi ko magawa pag may pasok (well at least with a clear conscience that is.. haha).

Matter of fact, I just came home from having coffee with a friend of mine.. I missed hanging out with him, kahit saglit lang. Everybody seems to be too busy to hang out these days. Well anyway, I realized that I have a relatively boring life right now.. there’s nothing much to tell. My extra-curriculars aren’t exactly life-of-the-party material.

Therefore, I need a hobby. And the search for a hobby begins. [Funny thing, if you stare at the word “HOBBY” long enough, it just looks like a weird mixture of letters.. sounds funny if you say it over and over again too.]

I’ll let you know how it goes. Haha.

Before I knew it, the headlights of big black pick-up were just a few inches from me — the driver honking madly. I should have been startled.. I should have at least tried to dodge as quickly as I could. Instead, I was just standing there, staring for a few seconds at the truck’s plate number before realizing what was going on. Then I just walked away slowly.

I felt like there was a huge void in the place where my brain was supposed to be. I wasn’t in the place I wanted to be — in more ways than one. It’s as if I was in Context Switch mode.. the limbo between states of mind.

The night went on.. and as different things transpired that night, I was in a different kind of dizziness. I was still in a void, but a different kind of void.

My eyes blurred at the view of the dark silhouettes of the buildings along EDSA zooming past as we drove by. My mind was drifting, lost in the concert of thoughts in my head — sometimes when there’s too much, there’s nothing. I could have stayed in that tranquil state forever, but I had to snap out of it. The midnight road isn’t something one wants to be simply drifting through.

That night I couldn’t sleep. I stared at my bedroom ceiling, listening to Joshua Radin’s “Winter” track over and over again. Occasional glimpses at my clock let me know that time was either in a stand-still or it was moving really really slowly. The sound of the second hand’s soft tick-tock was deafening even through the music in my ears.

It was like I was high.

Let me down, then take me higher…

I have an exam tomorrow at 1PM. I am cramming, as are the rest of my classmates (who are conveniently cramming together at Jen’s house). Please let the exam be answerable.

I have an MP due on Wednesday. I’m quite far from accomplishing my part… since I do have an exam to prepare for. Gawd I hope we can pass it on time.

After that, an exam on Saturday.

Then finals week!

I will be so happy when this is all over! (well not really, I have to pass all subjects first before I can really be happy) I’ll be FREEEEEE!

Let’s party.

 (right) My Pasta Puttanesca leftovers (@ Chocolate Kiss)

I slept at 3AM this morning. For me that’s an all-new record for early bedtime. Naturally, as all unusual things seem to never go unpaired, I woke up with a splitting headache, but the 8:00 AM time on my bedside clock seemed to indicate the start of a good day — which are rare.

Went online, plurked, checked my mail.. then got ready for school. It was hot as hell on my way to school. I thought it would rain hard when afternoon came ‘coz that’s how it usually works. Amazingly enough, the day stayed bright and sunny the rest of the day.

Got to school in time for CS 150 class. Ma’am Chris discussed Syntax and Semantics (plus tips and tricks, as well as the algo we’d be using for phase 2 of our Machine Problem).

I accompanied Dan to Chocolate Kiss after my class. We were to meet Mr. Aldwin (person making CURSOR shirts) there. By this time, the fact that I had not eaten anything since I woke up was making itself very apparent through hunger. I had forgotten all about food. So Chocolate Kiss sounded perfectly perfect.

I ordered Pasta. Dan got Fries and Sans rival. We talked over late “lunch”. CURSOR stuff.. people.. more CURSOR stuff. Haha.

It was almost 5 PM when we left Choc Kiss. I went to Eng’g. It’s been AAAAGESSSSSSSSSS since I went to our tambayan. I’ve missed seeing people around Eng’g too.

I was about to go home when I got a text from Marie. The rest is history.

Dinner at Sisig Hooray, then dessert at Jollibee (<<eh. haha). For the record, Sisig Hooray is NOT a good place to dine. What ever happened to regular plates and spoons and forks? Ever heard of CFCs? (They were using Styros even for those dining in). And MICROWAVE SISIG? Puhlease. Haha!
(left) The amazing upside-down cone-in-cup! (Makes no sense)

I had fun talking over dinner, as I always do. :) Grabe lang ang iyong question and answer portion, Marie. With the hand gestures and everything. Haha.

I took the LRT from Katipunan station. The new 11:00 closing time comes in very handy at times like these. I’d usually take the scary jeepneys to Cubao otherwise. Then MRT to Ayala where I bumped into Kai! :) We rode the shuttle together — while updating each other on the latest CURSOR-related chismis. Haha.

It’s one of those good days.

It’s because I stopped fighting. I let it take over me for just the slightest moment, and it ruled.

I WILL NOT EVER BE BROUGHT DOWN BY ANYONE OR ANYTHING.

I WILL MAKE IT THROUGH, YOU’LL SEE.

I WILL FIGHT!

I’ve been gone for quite a while now. By “gone”, I mean “Missing In Action”, out of it all, disappeared, lost, NOT THERE. People are asking where I’ve been. I keep asking myself the same question over and over again.

But enough with all the emo-ness. I’m sick of it. It’s all I’ve been doing, and it’s getting old. I’ve gone past my limits for self drama, and so I have put a cap on all that stuff. *Enter clean slate mode*

CS 180 exam this afternoon didn’t go as well as I would’ve wanted. I couldn’t concentrate, much less calculate all the things there were to calculate. Good grief. *Dizzy*

After the exam, a dismayingly strong downpour greeted us at the CS building exit/entrance. Thank goodness I had my umbrella. Couldn’t save my jeans though.. got soaked. It’s been raining cats and dogs recently, pardon the cliche. I feel like I’ve been zapped back to my freshman year when a sunny day was welcomed like Christmas in the summer. Makes me think the end of the world might really be drawing near this time.

Don’t worry about the world coming to an end today. It’s already tomorrow in Australia.

-Charles M. Schulz

(Yes, I’m stacking up on Charlie Brown quotes. I simply adore Charles Schulz)

Anyway, I didn’t go home right away. Went to Trinoma with Marie to have dinner, and talk (but not before getting even MORE soaked on our way to the mall). We ate at Taco Bell — complete with the never ending re-run of “Demolition Man”. I missed this. I missed going out with friends and just talking about life and people. I simply miss a lot of things right now. And this is not me being melodramatic.. this is me stating FACTS. I share Marie’s sentiments on dinner-outs. They are definitely irreplaceable.

After dinner, I went on to ride the MRT. The station was semi-packed. Is it just me or do wet raincoats and umbrellas make the trains seem all the more cramped than usual? Anyway, I got to Ayala where it seemed like highschool barkada reunion since I was with two of my friends.. and I could insert two VERY long paragraphs here about our tiring attempts at getting home quickly, but I’ll spare you the dull details, and spare myself the effort of going through it all in my head again.

Then now I’m blogging. I was in the middle of taking care of my acads but apparently, my attention span hasn’t changed at all, if not diminished even further.

Rain, crowds, and traffic don’t really make for a bad day. Sometimes all you need is a bowl of Cheesy Potatoes with a friend to make it a little better.

Salamat, Marie. :)

The movie was great. It wasn’t jaw-dropping awesome, but the storyline was quite good, and I was really into each scene. Plus it wasn’t all gut-spilling (as other action movies are these days). There was a “human” factor in the movie. I liked that about it.

Warning, semi-slight-kinda spoilers ahead. (more…)

So what’s there to wait a month for?

I’ll let you know in 4 weeks.

Sigh.

BUT THAT’S ALL OVER NOW. I have my blog back. (Hopefully for good). Pardon also my layout which is nothing short of lacking creativity right now, I’ll be changing it as soon as I have TIME on my hands again.

HELLO (again) WORLD! Mwah!

Tagged by Dan! :)

Rule: List all the names you were called by and the people who call you that. Tag at least 10 members of your contacts and give a comment on their site for them to know they’ve been tagged.

1. Mayee - My actual nickname. Most people call me by this (most of the time). From “Jeureen Maye”.. Add one “e” to the “Maye” and you have “Mayee”. Haha.

2. Timay - my younger sister, Katee, calls me this.

3. Ats - Mom and Dad.

4. Te-ats - Si Daddy lang tumatawag niyan sa akin.

*   Ma-je - Mommy. “Ma-je, wake up na!”

5. Mai/May/Maye (isa lang pronunciation niyan) - Mom, Dad, Auntie Ninang, Ate Ann, and my close friends who find it either hard to say the “yee” part of my name or just convenient to shorten.

6. Jeureen - People who I’m just acquaintances with for “business” purposes (e.g. company contacts from marketing, teachers/professors, etc). Nakakatamad na sila sabihan pa ng nickname ko. Haha.

7. Tita Mayee - Tito Elo used to call me this when I was a kid. :)

8. Jumay - Ken Gallo (nung app pa ako) & Marie (pag trip niya), from “Jeureen Maye”.

9. BFFL - Joellei, BFFL ko rin. Haha. Best Friend for LEVER. Joke.

10. Tolabing - Sir Pol and other High school teachers. “Jeureen Maye” is hard to pronounce apparently so they stuck to my last name.

11. Tolabs - I am called this on very rare occasions, but usually by Paolo Sy.

12. Mata - kung friend kita, then at one point in your life nasabihan kita ng “Uy! Nahulog mata mo!” at tumingin ka sa baba, at natawa ako. Most people go around calling me “mata” for days after that.

13. “3×5″ - Tawag sa akin ni Julius Torres. (at tawag ko rin sa kanya yan. haha bastos!)

14. Mayeeahi - By my beloved co-reps and close friends from the Engineering Student Council. Coined from our Miting De Avance presentation.. secret na lang kung ano yun. Haha. I based my domain name on this.

15. Bit - RJ, ang aking ever dearest byte.

16. Carl - Ria Marra Cruz calls me this. Crush ko daw si Carl eh. Haha issues. Hello, dimples!

17. Temas - (or some weird spelling I can’t remember) imbento ni Marvin. Haha.

18. Boss - Tawag sa akin ni Kee! (Exte kasi.. Hehe)

19. Mami-comhead-Mayee - Kyle! Exte again. Haha (I lab Exte!)

20. Rihanna - Ever since our version of “Please Don’t Stop the Music”, this is what my friend Badong calls me now.

21. Jeureen Maye - Brian Mateo (yikee special mention.. Haha) Nobody else calls me by my entire first name.

22. Bunso - G205/Molave luvs ko. :) They called me “bunso” because I was the youngest. I mishu!

23. Lil’ Sis - Kuya Jay! My adopted big bro.

24. Tamei - Ernie Veloso. Haha I still recall Senior days.

25. IS- Badong and Vincent. Mga pauso. :))

I’m too tired to think of any more. Haha. That’s that! Tamad na rin ako mag-tag.. so if you’re reading this, then TAG! YOU’RE IT! Gawin mo rin ito.

I seriously promise a more acceptable update next time.

http://jeureenmaye.multiply.com

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For some reason I have yet to post the very song that keeps playing in my head FOR WEEKS now. I would rather have something else playing up here but LSS leaves no room for choice.

Think me conceited, but the song is our entry to the Acoustic Jammeng’g earlier this month.. our version of Rihanna’s Please Don’t Stop the Music. :))

Gawd.. PLEASE give me new songs to sing over and over and over again in my head.

But that’s not the point of this entry.

Sabi ng tito ni Joelle tumaba daw ako! I merely dismissed the thought thinking to myself it’s been a year since he last saw me (during the days when Dan and I stayed over at their house doing our CS 140 MP). And then this morning Joelle texts me saying sabi daw ng dad niya tumaba ako! And it’s not that seldom that he sees me!

Okay, I’m on crash diet mode right now. See me holding up any edible substance to my face, snatch it right out of my hands and starve me to death. I am not kidding.

Wall-E

Once again, Disney Pixar brings us one outstanding movie. I loved Wall-E. It was hilarious, touching, heart-wrenching, amusing, and just plain BRILLIANT. The storyline was amazing, I mean, for a movie that has main characters who don’t speak to entertain that much.

..Hm.. I honestly thought I could write a better review than this for Wall-E, graphics-wise, plot-wise and all that.. but truth be told, it’s just one of those movies that you just have to see for yourself to really get how I like it so much. :)

Life.. in general.

I can never be able to comprehend how the flutter of time goes by. Sometimes it seems like the days last so long that it’s unbearable, and sometimes you don’t even notice 24 hours go by.

Just a thought. :)

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Classes are suspended today. It’s all typhoon Karen’s doing. Typical August, sending storms and typhoons my way. I love my birthday month. :))

I’ll post about my birthday experiences next time. I’m too pooped out from all the happenings to narrate everything detail by detail.

Thank you to everyone who greeted through text, multiply, facebook, friendster, or in person, or whatever else. You all made my day. :)

Special thanks to JC BORJA for his birthday gift. It reheheheaaally made my day. REALLY. Loko-loko ka talaga! LOL.

As usual, my birthday was very rainy. And when I say rainy, I sincerely mean RAINY. Thank you, August, for giving me such wonderful weather. How else can I have fun dancing in the rain?

It’s as if all the wonders of the world are now visible to the eyes that were once draped with a misty dull shade. It can’t be more exhilarating.. and more guilt-ridden as it is right now.

My life needs a serious overhaul.

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On more realistic updates:

- Acads suck.

- I am now reading “Breaking Dawn”, the 4th installment of Stephenie Meyer’s Twilight Series… and I am totally hooked. To tear me away from it is to take a leech with a blood-sucking grip off my skin and leave me with a gaping bloody wound. I am SO not exaggerating.

[edit] Done reading. Er.. sana pala hinintay ko na lang makakuha ako ng book. Ebook stressed my eyes. Late night stressed my brain. And everything else stressed everything else. But it was good. Not as good as the first three books though. [end edit]

- It’s August. I’ll be turning 19 in a few days. The end of teenage life draws nearer with every breath. I intend to make each and every last minute of it count. 19th year, say hello to a very life-living me.

- Have I mentioned, acads suck?

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I long to be free. Not of real bars, not of concrete walls, and not of any human rule.. but of this prison that life has put me in. The prison that dictates how I should live my life. The prison that sets standards when we were born into the world only with an awareness of ACTIONS… neither right nor wrong… only actions that benefit, and those actions that mean shit.

In more plain terms.. I hate being told what to do. I hate being told that the only way I’ll ever be something is if I do this.. do that.. go to school.. get good grades.. don’t have fun.. BLAHDIBLAHDIBLAH.

SET ME FREE PLEASE. I WANT TO BE FREE. I WANT TO LIVE MY LIFE.

I think this should not be happening.

I think life’s tricking me again.

I think my head’s getting fudged up again.

I think I’m making the same mistake again.

I think I should know better.

I think the consequences of my actions will catch up with me soon.

I think I don’t want a repeat.

I think a repeat would tear me apart.. what’s left of me, that is.

I think I’m too tired of thinking now. So what if I just let things be? just this once..

But yeah, today was fun.. impromptu reporting, mindsplitting lab exercise, morning traffic and all. It was also the CURSOR applicants’ talents night, so that was an added bonus. Plus, I got to eat at Rodics again for dinner after the longest time, and I’ve missed their Tapsilog so much.

Left school at around a quarter to 9 in the evening. Got home around 10:30.

If you haven’t seen the Ayala MRT station lately.. well, you should. There is something to smile about in the way they’ve set up their latest Lipton marketing stunt.

So now I’m really sleepy but I went and found a last shred of bubbliness to blog this, however miserable recap of a day this is. So here’s to one really awful and short blog entry! :)

But really, the world keeps telling us how to live. It’s in the sights we see, the music we hear, the people we’re with.. and yet we’re still confused. You want an apple, you climb up a tree and get it. Life gets hard around the part where you DO know what you want but everything else around you tells you to shut the hell up and want something else.

Now that’s just crazy.

And confusion is its disguise. :)

One had a gun.

One had a knife.

The one with the gun kept asking me to give him my phone. Crud crud crud.

WOAH. ADRENALINE RUSH. *curse after curse after curse* Haha.

FREAKIN’ SCARY!

Spent around 3 hours at the Makati Central Police Station with the other passengers and the bus driver and conductor trying to straighten out our stories and being interrogated about this and that. That was honestly more stressing than the hold-up itself.

Thank God I was not alone on that ride. Thank God no one got hurt.

Wooh.

0.0. In other news, I lost 2 phones! Both my smart and globe.. I’ll be getting a replacement sim for my smart later.. but goodbye to my globe.. and the hundreds of contacts I had on those phones. << This is the part I hate the most.. rebuilding my phonebook.

BUT IT WAS STILL A GOOD DAY. :) Fever, exam, and hold-up aside.

so I can stock up on tears and find the shoulder of a friend.

=/

Some guy in the front (the jeep seats 2 people in the front, beside the driver) was mumbling about getting wet and the hassles of heavy rain. The old man beside him chuckled lightly, and I couldnt help but chuckle a bit myself without knowing why we were chuckling at all.

“Ganyan talaga ang buhay..” the old man said out loud.

“Uulan at uulan rin. Mababasa ka, pero matutuyo ka naman ulit diba?” he said as he smiled and flashed a wise old gaze to the man beside him. The driver was all the while smiling at the old man’s words, as was I.

“Sa tabi lang po.” The man beside the driver said as we reached a road near Alabang Town Center.

“Naku sorry po, mababasa po pala kayo” he said to the old man who had to get down from the jeep and get under the rain so that the younger guy could also get down.

The old man merely laughed.

“Ganyan lang nga talaga ang buhay. Pag umulan, mababasa talaga tayo.” he continued saying as the other guy walked away.

Then he went on talking. “Kailangan talaga sa buhay ang umulan paminsan minsan. Kailangan yan para tumubo ang halaman. Kailangan rin naman ng init ng araw.”

At this point I could not help but smile at the wonderfully insightful phrases the old man had said. Amazingly though, no one else in that jeep except the driver seemed to think there was something wonderful about this old man.

“Eh kung magrereklamo ka lang ng magrereklamo, aba’y wala ka ring mapapala. Kung ano man ‘yang ibigay sayo, araw man o ulan, eh huwag mo nang hanapan ng iba at tanggapin mo na. Ganyan lang para maging masaya. Dumadaan lang naman ‘yan eh. Titigil at titigil rin ang ulan.” :)

He didn’t stop smiling after he had finished his little monologue. The wind roared even louder and the rain got even harder, but I couldn’t seem to care less.

I reached my destination, got off the jeep, and surprisingly faced the harsh rain with a smile painted on my face. It was as though the cold hard wind, which would have gotten me cursing if I were in my usual mood, was nothing but a gentle breeze, like the wind in the mountains when you’re on an early-morning hike.

A sudden gust flipped my umbrella inside-out the same instant I landed on the flooded sidewalk with a huge splash right up to my knees, and I got soaked to the bone. I was amused to find, though, that I had just laughed it off.

I got home, put on an acoustic oldies CD on my dad’s sound system, turned it up loud, went out, and just stood in the rain, looking up at the sky. I felt like Pocahontas for a minute or two, with the wind blowing in my hair, and the splash of rain on my face. It was the best feeling I’ve had in a long time. I was calm. I was content. I was happy.

Sometimes life hands you a good day. :)

Had lunch with friends! Met up with Clauds, Johann, Kevin, and Philip at Sinangag Express (phase 3) around noon time. Yep, Sinangag Express because we (well, Clauds and I) were all cost-cutting. After lunch and some chitchat we went to Johann’s place. We watched THE HAPPENING. It was not that great a movie, but it was hellufalot freaky. I would not want to be stuck in that movie’s plot.

Aaaand! Johann’s dog, Cotton, is uber duper super kaduper cuuuuute!

Kevin with Cotton. :)

There was also so much food at Johann’s house, a.k.a. “The Grocery Store.” I missed chocolates. *mouth watering*

Kevin drove Claude and me home. When I got home, I plopped on my bed and stared at my very messy room. I was supposed to go acad-mode, but it really was the last thing in the world I wanted to do. So I agreed to go out to ATC with my sister and my mom. :)

We did a little shopping for a birthday gift for my dad since it’s his birthday tomorrow. Then we caught the 5:45 screening of “Mamma Mia”. It really was a nice movie. A relief from all the action movies I’ve been seeing lately (namely WANTED, three times in a row). I laughed, I cried, and got LSS from the songs, so yup, it is a must-see.

When I got home I was in a sing-song mood. Happy as can be. And now I’m not. It is distressing how energy and happiness can just be SUCKED right out of me. Crud.

Can I just stay this mad at you forever? Can I just not care at all?

Edit: By the way, Sunday Funday 1 was this. :)

A CHANGE OF PLANS

I woke up at around 11 today. I don’t usually get up early on Sundays (or any day for that matter.. if I can help it). The original plan was to wake up Juancho up (text, call, bucket of water.. whatever it takes), then watch WANTED at Alabang Town Center.

But then some things happened.. which I don’t really have the liberty of discussing on my very public blog.. that changed the course of my originally planned-out day. Instead, my dad, my mom, my sister, and I were going to SM Mall of Asia to watch WANTED. Well yeah, something was left over from the original plan.. but you get the picture. I would not beg off on this. It’s too seldom a chance at family get-togethers.. weekends at the mall.. that sort of thing.

Intermission: I love my mom. :) [@Tanabe, SM MOA]

THE HORROR OF PARKING

My dad let me drive to MOA. Now see, I drive pretty fine now. Though it was my first time to drive that far (considering it was not a 3-hour long driving school session). So anyway, got to MOA fine.. and then came the dreaded PARKING. I hate parking for the simple reason that I ALMOST grazed another car yesterday night while trying to park at Alabang Town Center. Thank gulay the 4th level parking at MOA wasn’t even half-filled. I had a few rows of car-free parking spaces.

WANTED. TAKE 2.

I saw “Wanted” yesterday with Marie, JE, Brian, Kuya James, and Jamie at Trinoma after my EEE 8 exam. But the freakin movie was so cool I just HAD to watch it again! It’s still cool the second time around. Angelina Jolie is just…… woah. Dad got tickets for the 4:30 show, and Chili Beef Nachos delight.

DINNER, A VIEW, MUSIC, AND AN EARTHQUAKE.

After the movie we went around for a few minutes. My mom had been to MOA a lot of times before but according to her she’d never seen the bay side of it.. with the really lovely and windy view of Manila Bay. It was just breathtaking. The sunset really is one thing people should see when they go to MOA.

Since we had mexican for dinner the previous night, my dad suggested Japanese. We settled for Tanabe. Their service sucked, but the food was quite okay. Plus, there was this band playing just a few tables down. I love the sound of the saxophone on a windy evening. Nothing beats dinner and live music. NOTHING. We spent a little over 2 hours there, savoring the breeze, and Tanabe’s slow service. Ha ha.

I felt like a kid again, eating dinner out with my family. I was chewing my yakitori ever so slowly while swinging my legs back and forth, rocking my chair. I thought I was rocking a bit too hard when even the table started wobbling from side to side when my mom suddenly stiffened up and muttered “earthquake”. Considering MOA is built on reclaimed land (er, on what used to be just a part of a body of water), it was pretty exciting. Not exciting as in “let’s do it again!”, but exciting as in.. “woah, I got to feel an earthquake! woah!” Cool.

ALMOST!

After enjoying the live music for a half-hour more, we got the bill and decided to head home. I drove again. Exiting the parking is huwaaaaay easier. It was a little past Duty Free when I almost CRASHED into another car. Now THAT was even MORE exciting. And not in the “let’s do that again” mode either. Some black Lancer had cut past me with AMAZINGLY SUDDEN AND INCREDIBLY FAST SPEED making me SMASH on the brakes. I could’ve sworn I had stopped no more than a few CENTIMETERS from collision point.

After a few curses at the stupid black Lancer’s driver, we proceeded with the now relatively boring drive home. Then I got home. Soundtripped for a while then went back to work.

But the day was fun. Weekends SHOULD be like this. Minus that little episode which I did not mention above. :P

“What the fuck have you done lately?”

–Wesley Gibson, “WANTED”.

I skipped dinner completely for an anticipated onset of foodtripping. EATING TAKES THE PLACE OF GOING NUTS WHILE THINKING. (Then I don’t eat for days after. I think it’s sort of a disorder.. but what the hell.)

Two slices of bread, a few cookies, a bowl of ice cream, pancit canton, and a pack of Jack n Jill Chillos.. all in about 2 hours. That is not at all good.

Now why the hell am I bummed out? Firstly there’s this huge amount of acads piling up. Secondly, today was simply not a good day for me (although our CS 150 class didn’t push through.. hoorah!), and lastly but most importantly, my stomach’s making me feel like I’m on a never-ending Roller Coaster ride.. inside an infinite loop! And I’m not talking literally, it’s just this thing where you think you know, but you don’t know.. and they.. but you can’t.. and it’s just ALL SO FRUSTRATING!

He he. :)

I feel studious today for some reason. What that reason is, I’d rather not know.

But somehow, there’s still this nagging feeling of unrest as there was a year before, and the year before that. See entry: Waking up to Reality.

Our CS 197 class didn’t meet today, so it was already around 12:30 when I got to school for CS 150 class. I was a tad late. When I got to our usual classroom, lo and behold! Nobody was there.. It took me a while to locate where they had “migrated”, thus making me all the more later than I actually was.

Then more good news! Our class finished early! Or isn’t that good news? Our Wednesday session is supposed to end at 3:30PM, but we finished at around 2:00. Ehe.

Then I WENT TO THE LIBRARY.

I went around, trying to find the references I need for my current classes. Like I said, I’m feeling studious today. As I was heading over to the xerox counter with an overly thick “Introduction to Algorithms” book in my hands..

Dan: Mayee? Mayee, ikaw ba yan? May hawak kang libro?

Hahaha thanks, Dan. You made my day. Then fast forward to this moment, I have a pile of readings in front of me.. a bed that looks oh so temptingly comfy but nonetheless Mayee-free right now, and a piano that is silent! << Definitely signs of me being studious.

Now all I need is for this to go on til the end of the semester….. er, till graduation! then I’m safe.

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I’ve been busy these past few weeks. There’s the usual org stuff to do, there’s personal work, some other work on the sidelines.. and then you start to wonder where the hell the academics and school work went.

So I’ve been busy. What bugs me is that it’s not because of school work. I have no schoolwork to do yet! [well I do, actually, but as minimal as it can get]

Based on 3 years of experience, I have to conclude that this is not a good thing. Absence of something, anything that is usually constantly there is NEVER a good sign. So last Friday I headed to the Library and did my best to get a hold of all the books I need to hit before the hellweeks kick in. [yes, I did say THE LIBRARY. Amazingly, I didn’t spontaneously combust as soon as I stepped into the “hallowed ground”]

I cannot believe I went to Glorietta 4 and saw a movie with a thick hardbound Artificial Intelligence book in my arms. Define “the geek look”. Ha Ha.

To make a long story short, while just adding that traffic along South Super Highway is unbelievably torturous at noon, I arrived at the CS building late for my class. Thank goodness when I got to our classroom, there was a note posted on the door saying we’d be starting the class an hour late today. Yipee.

After that class, I headed to our tambayan. You would’ve been able to pick me out effortlessly in the crowded Engineering building because I was wearing blue. Everybody else was in orange because of the Homecoming Parade. I didn’t think our class would be finishing early enough for me to join the parade so I didn’t bother sporting a color I couldn’t detest less as wardrobe. I was forced to buy an Engg-O Week shirt for 150 pesos [Gah].

Then after spending less than 5 minutes with my orgmates lined up for the parade, Patrick texted me that our EEE class was not cancelled, despite announcements from the profs at Eng’g that there were no classes anymore precisely because of the parade. So with nothing but my cellphones, and my USB flash drive in the small pouch that I carry around, I dashed with my orgmate, Josh, to the EEE building [which is quite far from Eng’g].

I did enjoy our first EEE8 lab class though. We were made to make an LED blink, given a Bread Board [or Proto Board], resistors, a capacitor, an IC, etc [etc because I can’t remember everything exactly. haha]. But yes! We finished before everybody else. Salamat sa kaadikan ni Patrick at ni Rab, my groupmates. On the first test, we got the blink! It was fuuuuun. :))

Then we headed back to Eng’g, hopeful that we would still make it to the parade. We didn’t. We went to the tambayan instead. After around an hour or so of tambay, I went with Ate Kris, Pepoy [special guest!] and the other UP ARISE execom to Flaming Wings, Katipunan for dinner, and supposedly pre-planningsem bonding. I was glad to meet some new people, people I’d be working with for this year. Add that to my already intense excitement for this year to move forward already [right now it’s feeling like June is looooooongest month ever, and this week the longest week]. Sadly I wasn’t able to join the actual plansem because I still had to go home.

Aaaanyway. Tomorrow is a Saturday, and it being Saturday means that I still have classes, and not an actual weekend like the rest of the normal human race. But all’s good since tomorrow is..

UP CURSOR’S SILVER YEAR KICK-OFF!
Kite Flying Contest!
Potluck Picnic!
Lots and Lots of Fuuuun!

2PM at the UP Sunken Garden
Kitakits, CURSOR Mems and Alumni!

For the coming semester, I have been guaranteed that my Tuesdays and Thursdays will, at some point, stink. Let me blame partly the fact that my classes would start at 7:30 in the morning, [the time of morning I would usually be still in bed], also partly to that 7:30 AM class’ teacher who has intolerance for tardiness and who would be locking doors 10 minutes into the class. Gad. Good luck to me. Lastly, a large part of blame also goes to my almost-5-hour freaking break. 8:30 AM - 1:00 PM. If only I had a wireless landline, I could go on marketing galore and that way fulfill my duties. But I don’t think that’s gonna happen. So I pray to high heavens my phone bill doesn’t bail out on me. Owkay.

Wednesdays and Fridays

My Wednesdays [and part of my fridays] are relatively tolerable compared to my TTh Schedule. I only have a 1-hour lunch break inbetween the two classes I have for that day. Plus, I get off at 3:30 PM, which is good! Sad thing though, on Fridays I have a lab class from 4-7 in the evening. Goodbye to early friday night-gimmicks. Gah.

On other matters

I’m feeling quite old [though I’m not really]. I’m already a senior. Another batch of freshmen has entered the University. I got away with having the “kids” not call me “Ate Mayee” before. But now the age gap is already overwhelming. [heeeey, 18 lang ako. haha.] But I love G12 and G13, the CS freshie blocks we’re handling. They’re bibbo! :) I talked to them a little about CS life [while the block facis were (more…)

A new world. A new reality.

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Everybody’s blogging about how school’s gonna be starting again, and I shall not be one of them. I refuse to give in to this itching urge to promise myself an extraordinary performance in my academics, the “giving all I can” speech once again. Nope, this time, if I don’t make any promises at all, then there’d be nothing to break when all goes wrong, and I won’t be disheartened that yet again I failed to keep my word.

On a different note: I apologize, dear readers, if almost every single one of my entries lately has a link [except for this one, because that link is totally worth visiting if you’re a cynical soul]. It’s paying off, at the very least, and for that solely I am glad. Every good thing DOES have a price.